DAY ?: Oops

So it's been a week since I updated this. It is half due to my busy schedule with school and half due to sheer laziness. I also didn't really know what to talk about. It's been a weird past few days. Today we started to talk about the Old Testament and I am super excited. I am learning so much I never knew and it will definitely change the way I read the OT.

Personally, I've been going through a lot of changes. Today has been the first day here where I didn't want to go home. I am trying to balance to old life and my new one. It's not a fun transition. I am also disheartened that no one from my old church has even tried to call or contact me whatsoever. I know I don't have facebook, but it still kind of hurts. I miss them a lot and would love to share the things I'm learning with them. They've held me up through so much in the past two years; who's to say they can't help hold me while I'm here. I need them still, if not more.

On a brighter note, I'm loving the family I'm staying with. They have been nothing but great to me. They have fed me so much, it's been great. Their kids are a blast and I love them. I am started to branch out and really make some "other than dudes in my class" friends in the church, which I'm excited about. I'm trying to move forward. Despite my bitter feelings towards moving, I am trying to put my feelings aside and just deal in the now. The "now" is really all I have. I know nothing of the future at this point. I know things I'd liked to do, but not what I am going to do. It's so scary. Just typing it out is getting me completely stressed out. But I'm praying for God to open the doors that need to be opened. And more importantly close the doors that need to be closed.

Also, the other guys are dealing with money issues and I don't have a lot of those. I have most of the money for the missions trip and I have school completely paid for. I just need gas money and whatnot. They don't even know how they will pay for school. I would encourage to pray for them. Their names are Josh, Gabe, and Kansas. If you give me money in my paypal, it will not only go to my living expenses, but it will also go to help out my brothers. I love them and God wants to go great things for/with them.

thanks for reading, hopefully I'll update this more.