DAY ?: Oops

So it's been a week since I updated this. It is half due to my busy schedule with school and half due to sheer laziness. I also didn't really know what to talk about. It's been a weird past few days. Today we started to talk about the Old Testament and I am super excited. I am learning so much I never knew and it will definitely change the way I read the OT.

Personally, I've been going through a lot of changes. Today has been the first day here where I didn't want to go home. I am trying to balance to old life and my new one. It's not a fun transition. I am also disheartened that no one from my old church has even tried to call or contact me whatsoever. I know I don't have facebook, but it still kind of hurts. I miss them a lot and would love to share the things I'm learning with them. They've held me up through so much in the past two years; who's to say they can't help hold me while I'm here. I need them still, if not more.

On a brighter note, I'm loving the family I'm staying with. They have been nothing but great to me. They have fed me so much, it's been great. Their kids are a blast and I love them. I am started to branch out and really make some "other than dudes in my class" friends in the church, which I'm excited about. I'm trying to move forward. Despite my bitter feelings towards moving, I am trying to put my feelings aside and just deal in the now. The "now" is really all I have. I know nothing of the future at this point. I know things I'd liked to do, but not what I am going to do. It's so scary. Just typing it out is getting me completely stressed out. But I'm praying for God to open the doors that need to be opened. And more importantly close the doors that need to be closed.

Also, the other guys are dealing with money issues and I don't have a lot of those. I have most of the money for the missions trip and I have school completely paid for. I just need gas money and whatnot. They don't even know how they will pay for school. I would encourage to pray for them. Their names are Josh, Gabe, and Kansas. If you give me money in my paypal, it will not only go to my living expenses, but it will also go to help out my brothers. I love them and God wants to go great things for/with them.

thanks for reading, hopefully I'll update this more.

DAY 5 & 6

Week one of twelve is over. I feel like I've learned more knowledge about my faith than I every have before. I am trying my hardest to get everything I can. It's outrageous how much the devil wants to get ahold of me. The most I try to pay attention, the more distracting my thoughts become. The more I try to read, the more Netflix I want to watch. The more I try to stay away from girls, a girl from my past will try to text me. I've been winning some battles and losing others. 

I'm almost done the first book. I'm very happy to be finished with it. I want to move onto the next book, because that one from what my roommate, Josh has been telling me, it's deep and very insightful. This book I'm reading is good, but it kind of feels like it is beating a dead horse. It will tell you what you need to know in the first couple pages of the chapter and then just beat the point home for the rest. It's alright, very insightful look into the Gospel, and an easy read, but a tiring one.

I really am looking forward to getting some time with my mentor, Joe Burgers. He is awesome and I really want to start to hash out some of the issues I have with him. He's super understanding and patient, which is what I need right now. I talked to Kansas today about my tour pastor idea. He didn't seem against it. It was sort of a "we'll see, but I hope for the best" type of answer at the end, which I figured is about the best I'm going to get at this point. And that is fine with me; I know I have some issues to deal with, and that is why I'm here. 

Continued prayer is needed. Thanks for the donations.